i'm kinda really tired.

for seph
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i want to tell you
you're more than you think
and i want you to know
i'm less to you than you'll ever believe
if you're gonna go
do it quietly
please

~

yeah, so. i'm a sleepyface.
too much drama.
drama drama drama.
life needs to shut up.
eh.
whatever.
hippie school starts tomorrow.
this is a good thing.
imma write about how it goes.
'night.

p.s. sara gets a shoutout. i <3 u, girl.

well this is new.

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Originally uploaded by floatingabout

i've been done clinging to the past.
these days,
i look ahead.
it's beautiful there.
i love being done with being broken.

uncertain.

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Originally uploaded by floatingabout

it's weird that i don't need you anymore, love.
it's scary that i don't want you anymore
but the good kind of scary--
the kind that fills an empty space with new, fragile energy.
you aren't mine.
you were never mine.
was i ever yours?
do i even care.
nah.

bend me break me

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Originally uploaded by floatingabout

love me hate me.

i'm kind of in love with flyleaf. listening to "all around me." brandy's sleeping. jealous. need rest. might be going to the mall tomorrow. i need shoes. <3 pretty shoes. but sneakers, you know? pretty sneakers. k. gnight.

nobody lost, nobody found.

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Originally uploaded by floatingabout

me & brandy.
love that girl.
<3

the dress

shimmery green and subtle gold
lying in my closet, untouched, abandoned
cold, useless
gathering dust
smiles and laughs will never touch this fabric
it will never be adorned by
the glimmer
of a beautiful
night

you
and i
never
again
shimmery green and subtle gold
colors swirl
whisper--
goodbye.

one word

you told me once
you knew
the perfect word
to describe me
i guess
you
somehow
forgot.
thank you
for beautiful lies
for twisted truth
and short term emotion
thank you
for nothing
at all

inhale, exhale.

i don't really
write
much
i don't really
breathe
all that
much
i don't really
laugh
all the time
as much
as i
should
but
i make sure
to love
as much as
i can.
you bent me
you broke me
but now i know
what love isn't
and what love is
where to go
and when to stop
but i
never
stop
loving

is there anything i could tell you

is there anything i could say
anything i could feel
believe
be
that would make you run
run
far
far
away

i'm lookin' through you

where did you go?

seriously?

ok so
awesome day?
i think so.
it's 1:46 am
elaine's playing a pretty song on her violin
and i wonder
if all those famous composers
were ever tempted to add words to their beautiful notes.
i think i'd be--
just a little bit.

in other news--
a couple hours ago
matt gave me this adorable little amp! this is how it went:

me: cute amp!
matt: you can have it!
me: no, really?
matt: yeah.
me: you're kidding.
matt: no, i'm not.
me: ok, ok. but i can't believe you're giving me an amp.
elaine: ...wait... you're GIVING it to her?!

:D

never is a promise

i think the sky was angry at me.

decisions, decisions

so, sara my love--
i saw that you had a blog and i thought i'd make one too--so i could follow yours.
not sure what i'm gonna talk about here.
but i do know that i don't want to be selfish.
if i talk about myself
i want it to somehow
be of some
help
to
some
one